BELIEVE.. !

When you come to the end of all the light you know and you are about to step off into the absolute darkness of the unknown, faith is believing one of two things will happen -- you will find something solid to stand on.. or you will learn to fly ..

Something which I've learnt from the past few days ...

... is to put your utmost trust in what the Murphy Lord has to say - If anything can go wrong, it will and that too at the most inopportune time in the order of causing the most damage. Illusion is to think of anything not going wrong, it will anyway and if you circumvent all the ways in which the thing can go wrong then surely a new way of getting it wrong will arise :-). Since nature has always to take the side of the hidden flaw, left to themselves things will go from bad to worse.

So chill and be at peace. It may be so, but don't think of it. Sieze a few pleasures you can and do whatever little you can. Learn the practical wisdom of calling things to be good, when you receive blows say that they are flowers, when you are driven around like slaves say that you are free! Hide the carrion with roses :-)

I know.. all of it sounds pessimistic, cynical, discouraged or crappy.. May be I don't really believe in all of it, but I'll ever keep wondering about the existence of God and the so called Evil, both at the same time in this same world..

The "Jamun Lunch" Day

Its a pretty boring life now-a-days trying to finish off the BTP work with only a few people around. In the midst of this painful summer heat today we tried something interesting. The jamuns made an awesome lunch :-D

Lekhi dude climbs up the tree and cannot stop eating the best ones while throwing the jamuns down

Happy Tree Friends :-)

Gulti collecting many in the bag but we can't stop eating while sitting there

This chap feeling so happy in the leaves of the tree

And by the time we were back and ready only a few were left and we were almost full :-P

Song of the free

The wounded snake its hood unfurls,
The flame stirred up doth blaze,
The desert air resounds the calls
Of heart-struck lion's rage.

The cloud puts forth it deluge strength
When lightning cleaves its breast,
When the soul is stirred to its in most depth
Great ones unfold their best.

Let eyes grow dim and heart grow faint,
And friendship fail and love betray,
Let Fate its hundred horrors send,
And clotted darkness block the way.

All nature wear one angry frown,
To crush you out - still know, my soul,
You are Divine. March on and on,
Nor right nor left but to the goal.

Nor angel I, nor man, nor brute,
Nor body, mind, nor he nor she,
The books do stop in wonder mute
To tell my nature; I am He.

Before the sun, the moon, the earth,
Before the stars or comets free,
Before e'en time has had its birth,
I was, I am, and I will be.

The beauteous earth, the glorious sun,
The calm sweet moon, the spangled sky,
Causation's law do make them run;
They live in bonds, in bonds they die.

And mind its mantle dreamy net
Cast o'er them all and holds them fast.
In warp and woof of thought are set,
Earth, hells, and heavens, or worst or best.

Know these are but the outer crust -
All space and time, all effect, cause.
I am beyond all sense, all thoughts,
The witness of the universe.

Not two nor many, 'tis but one,
And thus in me all me's I have;
I cannot hate, I cannot shun
Myself from me, I can but love.

From dreams awake, from bonds be free,
Be not afraid. This mystery,
My shadow, cannot frighten me,
Know once for all that I am He.

-- Swami Vivekananda

Hangover of the last lap of IIT life

Summary of the last sem -- the life changing TRILOGY crack .. the screwed up CAT verbal score .. partying every night in the whole of Jan and Feb .. Cognitive Psychology, One Course to Rule them All! .. the crazy South Park addiction .. digging out all the keedas done in IIT life and profile writing .. the memorable Valedictory functions .. and the unkind BTP fiasco! Thus.. this four year IIT roller coaster ride is about to end, with all the ups and downs it had to end with a small downside - the painful project stuff demanding more work.

Now before starting the work to satisfy my guide, I had to visit home to get the much needed defragmentation and garbage removal. Fortunately got in touch with a few long lost school friends, met them and just felt the way I was and I used to think some 6-7 years ago!

Currently all the juniors have flown away for their internships and the batchmates leaving one after the other bidding a tearful adieu. Emotions saturate to say a Good Bye to the ones with whom I have lived these best days of my life. Fortunately there are a few who are staying back atleast till I leave this place and saving me from getting into a total vacuum.

Exactly one year ago I was chillin out there in the Land of Enjoyment (read Europe) and I still get kicks of the reminiscences of those days. Hoping to be there with loads of money! Just as Andy says in Shawshank Redemption - Hope is a good thing, may be the best of all things and no good thing ever dies.

May be what Gandalf says in The Fellowship of the Ring holds the ground --

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king."

current song: Eine Kliene Nacht Musik of Mozart
current mood: vacant
current work to be done: go back to the btp papers and coding
current desire: finish off the project work, chill out here and go back home asapp
current plan: tonight pizza_n_wine@poptates <:-P

signing off =;